- Tue Apr. 1
- UC Pagan Student group has a great meeting! Spam and M. provide a
sensory experience designed to get folks more in touch with their senses.
Everyone is blindfolded and subjected to a variety of sensory stimula:
tastes, smells, textures and sounds. It is a very interesting experience
and I am intrigued by the possibilities of extending it. Spam describes
his magickal working space which is a sort of Shamantic cave in the sense
that he can completely close out the light for meditation when he desires
to do so.
- Wed Apr. 2
- Dream: was talking/discussing the ALU galdor formula
which is the
Norse word for Ale and has all these connotations of divine
intoxication/inspiration. Then there was a vague part where Louis
Martinie' was taking a computer class at UC to learn HTML!
Rune study group met for end of Sowilo and beginning of final aettr with
Tiwaz. As before we had a symbel to mark the end of the aettr. I called
upon Balance, and Tyr, boasted of my getting into the MS program, and
stated my Will to find a moment of quiet repose in each day for
myself and to manifest the Norse software project that I have begun.
Heillsa!
- Thur. Apr. 3
- Recieve e-mail from Luis that the latest Black Moon web project is
completed. This is some drumming notes from a friend of his who has
passed on. The notes are very good and I am pleased with the work. I
consider how cool it is that Luis can provide a shrine to his friend's
memory and allow his work to go on...
The web is a veil of dualistic (binary) electrons, a manifestatation of
the great rite and a grand metaphor for the rest of creation: 1 + 1 = 1 or
2 = 1.
- Fri. Apr. 4
- Went drinking with C. had about five hard ciders at the Holy Grail.
Then went to a club for blues but they had comedy which neither of us was
in the mood for. Cruised around to the local underage coffee shop which
had
some garage punk bands playing. I was up for this but C. was not. I felt
a great flow of energy and had a sort of flash of insight into how to
express an aspect of myself that I know intuitively. There is this
ecstatic aspect of myself that often requires an almost formal invokation
via sacrament. The verbal metaphor I use for this is "letting the wolf
out" although there is no sense of the predator there except only in the
internal sense that the wolf consumes my normal operating persona and
allows me to experience ecstasy. Anyway, I could feel that about two shots
of liquor and
some time at the punk show was just what the wolf required to manifest.
(This is often the same consciousness that manifests for me at the ecstasy
rites our community has when they work for me.) So, I didn't let out the
wolf that night. Went back to the University and browsed the net for porn
until C. was able to drive again a few hours later.
- Wed. Apr. 9
- Dream: anxiety filled but not to the level of a nightmare. Somehow I
have run afoul of some sort of crime organization and two hit men arrive
to try and kill me. The assassins are a pair of men one young and cocky
and the other older and experieinced. The young cocky one points his gun
at me through the glass windows located on the side of the door and grins.
He decides to challenge me to a knife fight instead of just shooting me.
We fight with strangely beautiful knives that are composed of one piece f
solid steel with no seperate handle. The knives are sort of like small
swords with a single sharpened edge with a very slight hook on the end and
are used primarily in slashing. We fight for a while and then I riposte
to a wild cross body slash designed to cut my throat and put my edge
against the young assassins
throat, as I step up close to him, forcing him to drop his weapon. I
force him to kneel and stand
behind him ready to slash his throat as I talk to the older assassin. By
the rites of some strange code which is mutually understood, the assassins
will depart and hinder me no more but I must expect that others will come
in their stead...
I give a presentation on Germanic Myth and Religion in
my Old English class. It goes well and despite the limited time for the
presentation (15 minutes) I am able to convey some information. I give
out a bibliography to go with the presentation.
- Thur. Apr.
10
- Dream: We(?) are visiting someone and a woman comes in carrying a
baby. She walks over to me and hands me the baby, but it falls and I
scaramble to catch it and it bumps it's head against the wall. I comfort
it but it doesn't cry and is ok. The baby turns into a little girl who
speaks to me in Russian and points accross the room at something. I ask
her to repeat herself and she says something that sounds like the Russian
word for "cold" but that is not it. The dream is extremely vivid and I
can hear the Russian very clearly even though I don't recall it as
clearly now. Then she points to a picture on the wall
excitedly which is obviously the art work of a very young child, hops off
my lap and runs over to it.
Interesting, we are doing the two week
period of the Tewaz rune which represents the God Tyr. I look back over
the entries and am struck by the "loosing the wolf" metaphor that I came
up with last friday and how well it fits with the story of Tyr and
Fenris!
Alos there has been a strangely high level of libido for me of late which
consort and I have been enjoying greatly.
- Wed. April 16
- Rune study group meets to discuss Tyr and begin the Berkano rune. R.
shows some graphic work he has been doing on the Valknot design and it has
clearly captured one of the mysterys and instantly conveys that to me and
Consort. (I mean to say that thsi is a mystery that I didn't appreciate
before seeing the work!)
- Thur. April 17
- Lecture by Patricia Monaghan at the University sponsored by the
student group. She gives an excellent presentation which focuses on the
feminine deities and shamanism in Korea and Japan and the Sulis
Minerva shrine at Bath. She is a really fine person and we have a
good time browsing the bookstore and conversing with her. I find a
copy of "The Mound People" by Glob which is concerned with the
Bronze age mound graves in Scandanavia.
- Sun. April 20
- Kindred meets to continue discussion of Soul complex. Discussion is
somewhat lackluster as the material is very technical and involved.
Several folk are not present and C. howls for an extended period causing
great concern. How strange it is that a little baby is so limited in it's
abilityto communicate with us. There is something wrong but no one can
figure out exactly what... B. is strangely quiet and I am concerned for
him...
- Mon. April
21
- I recieve the gift of an athalme that belonged to a friend. I is
still consecrated and has private markings of the coven that he belonged
to. I strip off the markings with alcohol pads to respect the oaths of
the old covenstead. This tool is very interesting and has a great feel
for me. One aspect that surprises me is that it feels most natural in my
left hand but I am in fact strongly right handed. I get an inspiration of
how to modify and complete this blade. This is so strong and impression
that I am moved to abandon my duties and work on it immediately, but I
decide to wait for a more appropriate time!
- Tues. April 22
- Consort and I perform private Full Moon rite. Galdor is very vibrant
and rite has a nice feel to it. Much joy follows.
- Wed April 23
- Odd dream upon waking this morn. I was with two others, a woman who
was smart and assertive and in charge and a rather brutish fellow that was
along for "muscle"... we had entered a house in search of food and goods
and there was a partially eaten repast consisting of baked chicken on a
sideboard. I am
telling the woman something to the effect of "I generally find that it is
important to be sure that when you are crucified it is for a worthy
cause." Perhaps this is influenced by the fact that I am currently
translating the Old English poem "The Dream of the Rood" for one of my
classes... strange...
Last night got a call from M. asking if Consort and I will do a quarter
for the main rite at the Beltane festival. There have been several folks
that had to back out of the original planning. I hope that we can do the
North quarter as the Old Norse passage from the Havamal that I wish to use
will work best with that energy and Consort would like to invoke Nerthus
for the element of Earth. I hope to find the Old English Charm that can
be used for this purpose. It is interesting how these things work out. I
had consciously decided not to seek out such a role for this festival and
had only taken responsiblity for the Sword Dance which the opportunity
arose to replace with a traditional Morris dance taught by a troop of folk
that perform them. I was pleased that we had this opportunity and didn't
mind a bit that my role in it changed...
- Wed April 30
- Rune study class finishes Berkano and begins Ehwaz. I decide that we
should use the modified couple galdorstadha and we do this grouped in a
close circle so the two forms overlap and interpenetrate each other. The
galdor is very powerdful and litterally roars!
Have a very fine
conversation with R. whom I am very fond of. He is going through much
change of late... It's the really annoying kind that leads to new
growth and understanding.
After Rune class, we meet at DL's with the Kindred for the Walpurgis rite.
We use the rite out of Our Troth and it goes well. There is
lightning and heavy winds in the air, but the rain holds off until we can
complete the rite... I am pleased that D. is able to attend as we see so
little of her.