The Magickal Record of Louis Martinie': April 1998
Wednesday 1
Elaine in Cincinnati - Spoke to Elaine about cats and their ability to love.
Thursday 2
Elaine in Cincinnati
Friday 3
Elaine in Cincinnati
Saturday 4
Elaine...Cincinnati to New Orleans. A sense of balance in the car. So much has happened so quickly. I planned to leave early but there was so much to do.
Sunday 5
Arrive in New Orleans in the morning. Rest
Monday 6
I am tired on all levels.
Tuesday 7
Nomad Voodoo Paper.
Wednesday 8
New Orleans to Cincinnati at 1:00 am to avoid the tornados.
Thursday 9
Elaine feels her body is heavy. She wondered aloud why it never felt heavy before. The earth element is withdrawing. I told her it was a part of the death process.
Friday 10
Elaine...I found time to call Owen.
Saturday 11
Elaine. She said that I must be tired of being with her. Must want to do something else. I said that being with her was the most important thing that I can do.
Sunday 12
It is Easter. The festival of Esterus and fertility. How odd to keep this festival in the company of older women. Many preparing to die.
Monday 13
Elaine...Relatives come. Antie Jean and Uncle Al. Antie Jean is in her late 70's yet her eyes sparkle with a newness associated with youth. She is an artist and Mishlen's friend in the family. Leave Cincinnati in the mid afternoon. Thank the Buddhas.
Tuesday 14
Thank the Spirits. Sleep.
Wednesday 15
There is a great need to discipline my mind. This is not restrictive. The discipline is more akin to the sharpening of a knife. It does not take away from the mind, but directs its powers.
Thursday 16
Ritual at the Voodoo Spiritual Temple. Mary
Friday 17
Sleep. I am so tired.
Saturday 18
Work on the Congo Square mss.
Sunday 19
The Shugden controversy is on my mind.
Monday 20
Ahh! Music and recording is a constant...a joy.
Tuesday 21
I and Mishlen feel fearful...apprehensive.
Wednesday 22
A call that Elaine is passing. We both leave for Cincinnati. Elaine passes at about 10:26 PM. At this time in the car Mishlen has a vision. The vision is of Elaine, a fierce elemental force, shooting out of her body like a comet and then coming back to earth. Mishlen said that she had died. She cried saying that she did not feel human. More like a fierce elemental. No fear, Elaine had more a sense of irritation.
Thursday 23
Quite a lesson...we loose all things.
Friday 24
Elaine...the house is not a haunt of her Spirit. She has really left the house and all within it.
Saturday 25
Elaine...With lawyer working on the Estate. It is like Feudal Law when so much passed to the Lord of the place.
Sunday 26
To New Orleans...I have missed maybe 17 days of school.
In that we are dependently arisen, we are all connected. Everything depends on everything else for its existence. It is precisely this dependent arising that is this connection.
Monday 27
Sleep after work...Elaine is OK.
Tuesday 28
Rest after work..."Thank You, Elaine" has become a favorite phrase of mine.
Wednesday 29
There is great sadness in the missing of small things...a phone call Mishlen would had made to Elaine and now can not.
Thursday 30
Mishlen misses telling Elaine the weather, of her hurt toe...all small things yet so large in meaning.